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 on: November 26, 2018, 06:47:50 PM 
Started by 1nsight - Last post by 1nsight
Hi Mystress and all,

I somehow managed to lose the ability to experience emotions in my body... This happened almost 10 years ago, and it wasn't until this past week that I learned what kundalini is, so please bare with the rough details.

I used to be extremely shy and extremely emotional, experiencing both positive and negative emotions intensely. Around 10 years ago I actively started searching to ways to overcome my shyness and anxiety, and I found NLP and Tolle's Power of Now. I don't remember the exact moment, but the quote at the top here: http://kundalini-teacher.com/chakras/witness.html accurately describes what I experienced. It was like this awareness of my thoughts that caused some mental separation within me. After this moment, I gained some sort of unreal level of empathy - it's like I could put myself into the body of someone else and know what they were feeling, and thus gained some insight into their thoughts. Not only that, but I experienced emotions at an even more heightened level and, from what I remember, basically walked around in a state of bliss. I also had some strange kind of wisdom, where I would look at something or hear something and connect with it in a way that let me know it. Even engaging with people was a vastly different experience, it's like I could feel a sort of vibe or energy coming off from someone and could tap into it or draw the person into what I was experiencing. I also felt like there was this feeling or light coming from my heart, kind of in tune with my heartbeat, that was my inner guide. From what I've read online these things are part of the kundalini awakening process.

I was like that for a couple of months, until one day at work I was having lunch with a few coworkers and one of them started teasing me incessantly. Lots of angst in that teasing, and for whatever reason after I got back to my desk I started contemplating the feelings I was having when she was doing it. I got so deep into the feeling, and amplified it so much in my body, that I had the sensation of all the feelings within my body draw into a ball in my chest and disappear. Analogous to one of those old black and white TVs turning off. Since then, I have not been able to experience any sensation internally. Equally as bad, my libido is gone, or maybe greatly diminished as I can still have sex but it's not nearly the same as that desire within is not there for me. Now I just sort of "know" when I'm happy, sad, etc. rather than feeling the emotion inside of me.

I've done the grounding technique mentioned in the article above, and felt serious tingling/energy/vibrating in my feet that I could then extend throughout my body. I tried doing the exercise in the watcher article in reverse but my feelings have not returned. Am I able to regain my feelings or has it been too long?

For anyone wondering why I took this long to seek answers, I actually have attempted numerous times throughout the years but was always discouraged. Even reread Tolle's and other books many times, but not having that "guide", the heartbeat/chest feeling, meant I couldn't connect to anything. What's worse is that after the experience of losing all my feelings, out of desperation I tried to revert to my former self and imagined everything in my mind swirling around and becoming a jumbled mess. I can no longer do any of the things I mentioned in the beginning, nor can I access that sagely wisdom.

Any insight is much appreciated!

 on: September 05, 2018, 07:00:22 AM 
Started by Mystress - Last post by Goldenwisdom

i have sent 125 usdollars to you. for tummo initiaton. No one has emailed me anything. How long should i be waiting?

Simon Rasmark

  You can book an appointment with Sigmund through my tummo page http://kundalini-teacher.com/initiations/tummo.html Just send payment and he will get back to you to arrange a time.

  The price of initiation will be changing to $125. CDN on Jan 1 2008, largely due to the dramatic devaluation of the USD since the price was set at $100 usd in 2001.

 on: June 03, 2018, 03:25:50 AM 
Started by ALEXYMAR - Last post by ALEXYMAR
can you contact pedroalexmartins@hotmail.com

 on: June 03, 2018, 02:51:01 AM 
Started by ALEXYMAR - Last post by ALEXYMAR
I want To do fire serpent Tummo initiation. Thanks.

 on: April 27, 2018, 09:35:32 AM 
Started by wakeupneo - Last post by Mystress
  Major server updates to my vps a few days ago, broke a lot of things. I had thought this site was repaired but didn't look past the home page and the guestbook. Thanks for the heads up! Tech support is on it.

 on: April 26, 2018, 09:42:30 AM 
Started by wakeupneo - Last post by ron
I'm glad to see you are still around Mystress. We briefly worked together after I attended a KAI with Susan Carlson in 2005. I have not visited the site for a while. I trust all is well.

I often send students and other interested parties to the Grounding Meditation. That page is no longer functioning, as are most of the other sub-pages on your website. I'd love it if you were able to keep it live for us. It's a tremendous resource and has helped a few hundred people just from my linking it alone!

 on: March 26, 2018, 12:28:12 AM 
Started by Souli - Last post by smilerose
Good Afternoon:

I have made payment for SFT initiation via PayPal on 14.03.18.  Please confirm by when the SFT initiation can be scheduled.  Can it be done via chat?

Thank you.

 on: March 07, 2018, 05:10:53 PM 
Started by wakeupneo - Last post by Mystress
  I suggest you read "Stalking the Wild Pendulum" by Itzak Bentov. You can read it for free online, if you search. Its all about the physics of kundalini, including why the rising energy makes your ears ring.
  My Grounding is safe!

  Donations, yes! Thank you for your support.


 on: March 07, 2018, 12:41:48 PM 
Started by wakeupneo - Last post by wakeupneo
Thank you Mystress for your correspondence, it means the world to me...

Being that the tinnitus I believe is energetic(days before the tinnitus I felt swirling energy in the area when doing grounding and I would feel radiant heat in the area for days before I woke with the partial deafness and tinnitus)some talking heads told me that I created a block by doing incorrect grounding pratice. Is it safe to resume the grounding meditation? Is there a chance I created a block? I do my best just to "sweep" down through this area. I am very drawn to the grounding practice and want to continue but my discretion tells me I need to make sure that I didn't create this via incorrect practice.

Thank you. BTW, do you have a function donation tab?

 on: February 27, 2018, 04:19:51 PM 
Started by Souli - Last post by Ryan
Hi Mystress,

No problem, like Souli I am happy to wait.  I am currently doing the FST course and am getting plenty of sustenance with the Grounding and everything from the lessons.

Looking forward to it!

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