so, i had a very intense and profound dream back in early/ mid december. i can honestly say this dream was so powerful that without it, i would not have found my way here... it shifted many things for me and is what lead me to learn about tantra. it was an erotic dream... when i woke up i identified the man as jesus (i dont rememebr why... it was just the name that came to me when i woke), but, after reading about the devine beloved, i am not so sure anymore. it was so real.
i don't remember much until i get to this moment when we are in the bed together and i see him, but he isn't totally solid, he looks almost a bit translucent. but he was physically there in the bed with me, i could touch him. he had white light coming out of his hands as he was touching me. really, he was more hovering his hands about an inch off my body. i remember light colored sheets, but nothing really about the background or where we were. then, and i wont go into the details, it was sex as i have never experienced it. no shame, no remorse, just ecstatic beautiful love making that was truly a physical manifestation of love. the love, and i don't even think that word fully encompasses what i felt, was so profound it was unlike anything... i really don't know how to describe it. the powerful emotions/ energy going between us was something i had never even come close to feeling in anyway in real life. it was beautiful, and healing.