question regarding grounding meditation

[wakeupneo]

A bit of background... I somewhat forcibly opened my crown chakra back in 2011. The years that followed the opening were full of terror and trauma. Thankfully much of phenomena have settled and have left me in a depersonalized/disconnected dreamlike state instead of constant abject fear.

After watching the years pass me by, after watching my children be born, grow up and feeling like I'm not really "there" I decided I needed to do what I could rebuild myself energetically/physically etc. The grounding meditation on the website is similar to the grounding mediations which are taught in taoist and zen schools. In these particular traditions they claim "there is no ill this practice cannot cure". The etheric energy one brings day restores the body.

I've been doing this practice rather vigilantly for the past 8 months, often for many hours a day. It has allowed me to come off of some of the psychotropic medications I was put on and it has definitely made me feel more embodied and grounded. Last week I started noticing some very palpable blockages on the left side of my face/head. I started noticing heat was building in those areas and I felt like I could no longer comfortably bring my energy through those areas. A few days later, upon waking, I had tinnitus like I had never had before along with partial deafness which has now continued for over a week.

I think this is some sort of a healing reaction or retracing of some sort however I became a bit nervous that I might be over-doing the grounding exercise. Is it safe to do the grounding for prolonged periods of time? I have even toyed with the idea of going on a personal retreat and dedicating myself to the practice for the entire time. Would this be safe? The last thing I want to do is create more upheaval for myself by pushing too hard and indiscriminately.

Just wanted to pick the goddess's brain and the community. Thank you for taking the time to read! I look forward to everyone's responses....

[Mystress]

  Hello:

    The grounding is very safe, it just resets your energy flow back to what its supposed to be, naturally.

   For depersonalization though, try the soul meditation. Observing the breath without controlling it, is the best way to come back to your body.  Whats happened is the soul is afk and that is why the odd detachment. Call it back to you, with your imagination and words. It looks like a tiny bright spark of light like a star. It belongs near your solar plexus.

[wakeupneo]

Thank you so much Mystress. Your correspondence means the world to me.

I will start doing a daily practice of observing the breath in addition to the grounding. I pray this will help in my embodiment.

In regards to the tinnitus I sometimes feel like it might be due to the meditation. For over a decade I engaged in practices centered in the head and I practiced with the vigor of a yogi. Now when I do the grounding I find so many blocks, so many crystallization, often I find myself struggling just to move my attention through my head. Often I feel that I create more tension.

Mystress, I was wondering your thoughts on the tinnitus. Is it fundamentally positive(perhaps I'm reseting energy flow) or is it a sign that many practice is creating too much energy in the head?

I'm also eating a paleo type diet and taking supplements for the purposes of detoxification if that has anything to do with it.

Thanks again for taking your time to respond.

John

[Mystress]

 Sorry I didn't mention the tinnitus, it is a common kundalini symptom, related to the vibrations. It will come and go as it pleases as the process continues, don't worry about it.

[wakeupneo]

Thank you Mystress for your correspondence, it means the world to me...

Being that the tinnitus I believe is energetic(days before the tinnitus I felt swirling energy in the area when doing grounding and I would feel radiant heat in the area for days before I woke with the partial deafness and tinnitus)some talking heads told me that I created a block by doing incorrect grounding pratice. Is it safe to resume the grounding meditation? Is there a chance I created a block? I do my best just to "sweep" down through this area. I am very drawn to the grounding practice and want to continue but my discretion tells me I need to make sure that I didn't create this via incorrect practice.

Thank you. BTW, do you have a function donation tab?

[Mystress]

  I suggest you read "Stalking the Wild Pendulum" by Itzak Bentov. You can read it for free online, if you search. Its all about the physics of kundalini, including why the rising energy makes your ears ring.
  My Grounding is safe!

  Donations, yes! Thank you for your support.

http://kundalini-teacher.com/donations.php

[ron]

I'm glad to see you are still around Mystress. We briefly worked together after I attended a KAI with Susan Carlson in 2005. I have not visited the site for a while. I trust all is well.

I often send students and other interested parties to the Grounding Meditation. That page is no longer functioning, as are most of the other sub-pages on your website. I'd love it if you were able to keep it live for us. It's a tremendous resource and has helped a few hundred people just from my linking it alone!

[Mystress]

  Major server updates to my vps a few days ago, broke a lot of things. I had thought this site was repaired but didn't look past the home page and the guestbook. Thanks for the heads up! Tech support is on it.