I have a little more than a year meditating, and I notice that at night my energy starts to get strong but at the same time I feel a strange sense of self-love with lust. As if a female presence is being revealed inside of me, and it's just real strong like if I want to make love to myself which sounds wack and I'm not homosexual at all. I'm completely straight, does that mean I have to balance my male and feminine energies? Oh also, marijuana has nothing to do with this sensation but if I smoke I'm MORE aware of this presence.
It is normal. Read the essay on the Divine Beloved.