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[Da Zues Mon]

for about a year now i've been putting into practice the process of surrendering. I've let alot of things go and for the most part just let everything go with goddess's flow and, for a while, i found myself flowing with that same flow. then i found the witness state and gained much from it and also it spawned many entities concerning my roles and power within myself.
anyways...
there's been a "movie clip" replaying itself in my head for quite a while now. i see can see myself dying, at those final moments where i depart and say my goodbyes to all my grieving family and friends and it puts fear and feelings of resistance within. its almost like there is something in my head convincing me that im going to die so say my farewells. Ive had a near-death experience before so its not like im scared of the actual process but rather the way everyone's going to take it. Im seeing my death through the eyes of someone llike my mother or father or sibling and it hurts me. maybe this entity inside is just trying to make me comfortable to the fact that i will die.
i feel like i jumped onto the middle of the ocean. no ground, no stability, and vunerability surrounds me and fear of the unknown consumes

[Nevah Entitar]

Keep. Swimming.

The Universe is guiding you towards images of death and release, in short, to desensitize you. Once you are no longer afraid of them, once they no longer inspire resistance and fear but hope and serenity, you will be free. However, you have been meditating upon freeing yourself of your attachments as of late, and so your internal Teacher is guiding you to the last refuge of your attachments: your own life.

Keep going, trust in your internal direction, and don't do anything drastic in the physical world.

[Mystress]

  These sorts of visions are very common with the kundalini process, and its a metaphor for ego death not physical death. Keep in mind that there is a differece between your relatives, and the idea of your relatives that lives in your head. Surrender all your thoughts, opinions and beliefs about your relatives.

  Blessings..

[Da Zues Mon]

thank you Mystress.