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[Da Zues Mon]

The clearing of the power chakra leaves me feeling shaky, fragile, and vulnerable. My stomach gets so tight sometimes it feels like I'm going to implode, and the tremors have yet to leave my hands(probably because I keep looking for it )

I have found something wonderful in physical pain-- relief. Not necessarily causing pain to myself like cutting myself or banging my head against the wall, but pain received from another source beyond my control. Like boxing with a friend, or jumping into a heavy metal mosh pit. After a good session, I feel refreshed, peaceful.

Though I know that pain releases endorphins and can snap me back into the present moment, I've been wondering about the energetics of it. Perhaps it cracks open my crown even for just a sec and releases blockages, as well as helping my ego accept what it wants to protect itself from-- uncertainty, hurt.