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 Sorry I didn't mention the tinnitus, it is a common kundalini symptom, related to the vibrations. It will come and go as it pleases as the process continues, don't worry about it.

Thank you so much Mystress. Your correspondence means the world to me.

I will start doing a daily practice of observing the breath in addition to the grounding. I pray this will help in my embodiment.

In regards to the tinnitus I sometimes feel like it might be due to the meditation. For over a decade I engaged in practices centered in the head and I practiced with the vigor of a yogi. Now when I do the grounding I find so many blocks, so many crystallization, often I find myself struggling just to move my attention through my head. Often I feel that I create more tension.

Mystress, I was wondering your thoughts on the tinnitus. Is it fundamentally positive(perhaps I'm reseting energy flow) or is it a sign that many practice is creating too much energy in the head?

I'm also eating a paleo type diet and taking supplements for the purposes of detoxification if that has anything to do with it.

Thanks again for taking your time to respond.

John

  Hello:

    The grounding is very safe, it just resets your energy flow back to what its supposed to be, naturally.

   For depersonalization though, try the soul meditation. Observing the breath without controlling it, is the best way to come back to your body.  Whats happened is the soul is afk and that is why the odd detachment. Call it back to you, with your imagination and words. It looks like a tiny bright spark of light like a star. It belongs near your solar plexus.

A bit of background... I somewhat forcibly opened my crown chakra back in 2011. The years that followed the opening were full of terror and trauma. Thankfully much of phenomena have settled and have left me in a depersonalized/disconnected dreamlike state instead of constant abject fear.

After watching the years pass me by, after watching my children be born, grow up and feeling like I'm not really "there" I decided I needed to do what I could rebuild myself energetically/physically etc. The grounding meditation on the website is similar to the grounding mediations which are taught in taoist and zen schools. In these particular traditions they claim "there is no ill this practice cannot cure". The etheric energy one brings day restores the body.

I've been doing this practice rather vigilantly for the past 8 months, often for many hours a day. It has allowed me to come off of some of the psychotropic medications I was put on and it has definitely made me feel more embodied and grounded. Last week I started noticing some very palpable blockages on the left side of my face/head. I started noticing heat was building in those areas and I felt like I could no longer comfortably bring my energy through those areas. A few days later, upon waking, I had tinnitus like I had never had before along with partial deafness which has now continued for over a week.

I think this is some sort of a healing reaction or retracing of some sort however I became a bit nervous that I might be over-doing the grounding exercise. Is it safe to do the grounding for prolonged periods of time? I have even toyed with the idea of going on a personal retreat and dedicating myself to the practice for the entire time. Would this be safe? The last thing I want to do is create more upheaval for myself by pushing too hard and indiscriminately.

Just wanted to pick the goddess's brain and the community. Thank you for taking the time to read! I look forward to everyone's responses....

  Wanting to protect people is kind of like, being their guru.
  Taking responsibility for what happens to others, is kind of like, being their guru.
  So for someone who doesnt want to...??

  The problem is, you. You walk around trying to be big and shiny light and that light pokes people's karma and if they do not know how to release it then it can manifest in their lives. That is why you get such polarized reactions from people.

  You need to turn your energy inward, give it to your own heart chakra with a prayer to Goddess,  "Thy Will be done" and let Her handle it.

Dear Mystress,
I've been a student of yours since I was about 3 when you visited me in a dream. I come from Norwich England. My friend around the corner who looks like a kind of Old West policing man, with a screen at the front of his house, he looks very similar to you. He did similar work to what you do, with me for a while, doing tolerance testing on my energy field. I managed to get out of the loops of my life when I had chemical lobotomies and when the people came to visit my house, they were Mystress-alikes. And that's because its a very USA appearing town, on the coast. Which used to anciently be called the Crow's Mere. And has a kind of Medaeval/Medieval Cathedral. A parish church which has beautiful darkish/mottled gray/grey stones. I sit in a viewing tower and sometimes look at the gaps between the buildings which are sort of Fiddlers on the Roof roof tops, across at the ocean where freight ships go past. And, there's all windows. And winds go through these windows. Black winds. And there's a big Mansion House with a Triangle Roof, which is a big scaled up but otherwise identical version of the house which was immediately behind the house I grew up in, on a council estate in Norwich, just behind a big main road, which had a pub immediately just over the houses which was a Rock House, run by Iron Maidan the famouse group. I later worked there, when it became a family pub. It's also a very big beautiful building. Norwich is very American/Canadian if you read into it. It has high affluence. And I looked also like a Milani Pagan Princess, in my old photo of me at School Ball, aged 17. I used to be a Chorister back then and wear this special blue robe. Nanny was a parish Church lady she had occult boons and if I tell people the story of Nanny Lorna, they know I'm talking about an Illuminati Lady of the White Order. So, because I live in Flat 2 in the Anne Frank House now, and there are books over the attic room, up the stairs...I can build up a cult. And in the Cult, the mystery school stuff is of course all offered up the Progenitor Culture of you the Great Philosopher, Mis Tray Sckuel Canadas. I can speak ancient languages by the way. And design English Hebrew. I also teach people American Intonation, how to speak Dutch intonation properly, and how to speak Romani. Mumma Mish, Dalai Lama's Spiritual Wife, my mum who takes Risperdone religiously, she is the 2nd in the R|ussian Doll Set of our culture. The second lineage holder. And the first is Betsy the Jewish Outcaste/Ex-communicated Bethnal Green Mum with the 7 children, mostly from black dads. And Mum, her children were all from the white elite, tho she is an Indian/Native lady or Tibetan. We put out the leaflets to celebrate the birth of our Son, Little Yvan Jay, who is a Tibetan Monk/Red Skin/Romani-Humour, Foreign Diplomatic level of Emotional/Mental Dexterity of child. He has the same nose as the man Markus I wrote to who was my Supervisor at Hospital Training Medicine. And who also visited me, when I was a child. I live above a shop run by another Markus. And two shops down another Markus. And, of a day, I sit chatting with Hippy Elders, who drink/smoke outside the church, with our friend, the Buddhist Monastary cult leader/liberal, called Shak, who says he is Shakimuni.

Thankyou from North Norfolk Buddhism Studies. We've pumped massive amounts of wealth into Cromer since the leaflet went out, and meant we could have an attunement to the Bedlam/House of Nightmares/Sin City and other Dark and Satanic Circuits here in Cromer. And everywhere you look, people are putting up the most terrific/inspired building of great beauty and sealing off satanic openings with new shop designs and its a occult/psychic hotspot. The town has a shop 2 doors down from me, which is an actual fully authoritative proper Pagan Shop, with massive wall hangings of Buddha Icon/Ganeshe, in a lovely room which you can walk past, and look down on the lovely table, and a little window with proper shod offering, of skulls/bowls/candle holder. And every conceivable prop/thing you could wish for, in windows. They even sell cloaks for children.

And 2 doors down in the other direction, a Christian Bookshop, where they let you divinate which books. Which is a town tradition here. You're most welcome to Cromer any time. We pray for people like you to come here. And please welcome all your students. We, at Buddha Studies would think you'd look particularly good posing on the lovely stairs of the Giant Red Centre Piece Hotel, Hotel de Paris, a great huge building, just in front of the Pier. When you lived in the Crow's Lake in your past life, you did a lot of work and were famous and probably didn't get killed off like the other one's. And I can feel your relationship to questions about how to calculate divinations of Cromer, such as angulations of buildings, and deviations from sources of hot spot super phenomenal activity. H men appear here regularly in person. And there's plent of people here who see or feel dead people. In our town you'd be taken to be odd if you didn't.

We love you and thank you for saving us. You've protected our lives and happiness.

So, good bless and good luck, Lovely Mystress

we'll crack the code eventually of the Jews and how it came to be some of us get lobotomies and get hooked on our mystresy pathway and find a way out for all beings. "lots of love"

....that last phrase was the phrase of nanny lorna....

Quote from: Unknown on October 23, 2017, 09:44:26 AM
I tried Metta and Lojong practices to free them of their suffering.

I meant to write Tonglen and not Lojong ;o)

A bit of background to the reason I have this question first:

I met a Shaktipat Guru in my early teen 30 years ago. I have had a lot of resistance to the relationship with the organization and the guru-disciple relationship. I have always been trying to do it on my own. Being Goddess/Shakta oriented in my practice, the answers have always come when needed. Every spiritual group I come across welcomes me unconditionally with open arms. People I meet find I awaken something in them.  I have traveled to the upper spiral gate several times in my life since the age of 9 but only once beyond. I am concerned with clearing entities and meditate on a black seat. I currently live near an empty church.

The problem I am facing is that I notice that people suffer a lot after they have met me. I tried Metta and Lojong practices to free them of their suffering. But I can't help feeling that the Vortex I create around me is the cause of their suffering. I am not averse to the illusion the world offers and love the innocent beings asleep in Samsara. I have since learned to protect myself and to let those who thirst quench their thirst without their knowing of the source they drink at. I don't want to be known nor a Guru. All is well for me. But not so much for my neighbors, friends, spouse and family. One of them started to sink into a years long depression before moving away from next door, another has developed a heart condition and cancer living with me and another severe mental issues, another one lost her ancestral home, another one has to take care of his dying raging mother for a whole year and beyond. All these people were fine before they met me. The ones that neither love nor hate me but threat me respectfully or with indifference have no issues.

My question is how to extend the circle of protection to those who need it, without them knowing nor needing to follow a path nor me for that matter?

Quote from: toki on September 29, 2017, 05:20:44 PM
Thanks for your words. now I have the clearest picture. I made the payment (5th september-17) of the initiation in Serpent Tummo. Do you think I should take it?

  I have a bit of a backlog, I have fallen behind since I do not have a lineage member available to do them, atm. I am trying to catch up with activations. You will get an email to set it up in a few days. Thank you for your patience.